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08 January 2020 @ 11:23 pm


The name's Sarah, it's a pleasure to meet you.
 
 
22 June 2015 @ 01:02 am

Wow wee it's been a year again.
This space is so comforting to return back too. I hope livejournal doesn't close down when i'm not around.
Back here again to pen my thoughts down, thoughts that don't go anywhere but linger around my head.

This is for everyone out there.

Why do people cheat?
Out of boredom, selfishness or greed?
Cheating is never a good subject or topic to talk about. It is therefore deemed sinful, which i wholeheartedly think it is. Be it cheating on your parents, friend's or cheating on your partner, when cheating is ever good? I'm 23 this year and i've seen my fair share of relationships around me.
It never turns out well to cheat, if there are no consequences at that point of time karma will somehow come knocking on your door one day. I asked J if he will ever cheat on me, he took a relatively long time to reply to my question. Why? I guess nobody is certain that they will never cheat on their partner. Yes cheating has many forms, but the worst one is sex/adultery. For me i feel that i can be certain i would never let that one moment of greed and selfishness get in my way. For? Sex? It ain't worth it. People who usually cheat are those people who are self centered and only want what they want for themselves. Any form of reasons after cheating after sex are just excuses. But i've been asking myself, is
communicating with the opposite sex that one partner doesn't know about considered cheating? Is it on the same cheating level as when your partner goes out to have sex with people? Is phone sex and lewd texting deem forgivable?
So many questions but never a definited answer.

Sigh pie, i guess anything that involve decisions of the heart makes things super duper complicated.
Oh well just thoughts for tonight before i start school tomorow, which actually started a week ago.
Reality hasn't hit me yet that my 3 months of holidays have just flown by like that.
Where did all my free time go? :(

Heading to Batam then to Bintan in a few days, can't wait for a good massage to start my engine going for my 2nd year
Bye telegramm, leaving you with two songs i can't stop listening too. Till we meet again, x



 
 
22 May 2014 @ 12:07 am

You lift my heart up.
When the rest of me is down.
You, you enchant me, even when you're not around.
If there are boundaries, I will try to knock them down.
I'm latching on babe, now I know what I have found.

I feel we're close enough.
I wanna lock in your love.
I think we're close enough.
Could I lock in your love baby?

Now I got you in my space.
I won't let go of you.
Got you shackled in my embrace.
I'm latching onto you.

Now I got you in my space.
I won't let go of you.
Got you shackled in my embrace.
I'm latching onto you.

I'm so encaptured, got me wrapped up in your touch.
Feel so enamored, hold me tight within your clutch.
How do you do it, you got me losing every breath.
What did you give me, to make my heart beat out my chest.

 
 
28 April 2014 @ 03:48 am



Sigh, hate that i feel this way. because i'm not suppose to.
I can't help it. Gah! Hate that i'm a leo sometimes my emotions are always the first priority to me
like if i cant satisfy my emotions to how i imagined it to be
I would get frustrated and angry.

I need to vent it out here, instead to anyone else because i don't exactly want people to see this side of me
I hate that i'm always having to plead twice or more before you agree
Whilst your friends don't even need to plead, just ask

I feel so inferior and second place whenever i compare it like that, but somehow
i know i'm unreasonable because i compare it like that, do i make sense?
Whenever its me, you're it's so different when it's them.
When i'm with you you're always laughing to your phone.
Seems like the phone has become an object that you can't go w/o touching
And smiling most of the time, to your screen and not to me,
At those times, i feel like i'm drowned in the background, gone and lost.

I hate that time spent with you is always restricted, places are also restricted.
Not that we can't go anywhere, is that you with me it's always rather nowhere
I can never feel how other girls feel, like going to your house or being sent home like a princess.
Hate myself because i know i can never be satisfied and i always compare myself to others.
"Ok" and "Haha" seems to be the only words i can say to make us feel better
But actually i feel like shit inside.

I can't sleep on nights like this, i stay up unconsciously no matter how tired i am.
Afraid, worried, thinking non stop, imagining, perplexed, sad.
Sigh, I'm putting on a show trying to change,
only realizing that doing my best to avoid how i feel make me hurt even more
I wanna make you jealous by making plans too, but fact is i have no plans.
Fact is i'm jealous of how you are able to go somewhere and not think about how i would feel.
I know you're trying to make me feel ok by changing the way you handle me, but it still hurts.

Ok, goodnight :) the smiley is me forcing every inch of the good girlfriend out of me.
I'm not like her, i'm not like them. I cannot not care. It's because i still care.
The only thing that changed it perhaps my ability to stop myself crying to sleep
I'll be strong, because i don't want to be the loser anymore.
 
 
17 March 2014 @ 02:40 am




Hi! Finally March is here, bought my very first bikini in my life from triangl that cost a bomb. Cant wait for it to reach!
Partied on a ladies night in forever. The white collection that is completed that never got a fashion show :(
All in all I'm truly blessed to be able to get everything i ever wanted. So blessed.

Bali in 4 days!
#eatsleepbeachrepeat